Writing about fibromyalgia

Hello,
I am writing about fibromyalgia in our comp class because I have recently been diagnosed with it. I am really scared because it has made so many changes in my life. I am not the same person I used to be. I have always been happy go lucky and never let anything really get me down. However, I am in constant pain now. Nothing ever seems to help it. I have tried a couple of medications. I have to say I have never taken medication before so I am a whimp when it comes to them lol. But they dont really work. I feel some times like I am taking meds just to take them, and I dont like that. I really hope that soon they can get me on something that helps. I understand that nothing will ever take the pain away, I just want something to help calm it. I need to be getting more than three hours of sleep at night. By the time I do fall asleep its mearly because I am sooooo tired that I cant do anything but fall asleep. I have seen my family doctor about this, who sent me to a specialist. I cant afford to continue to see the specialist, its so costly even with insurance. So I am not sure what to do next. Do I go back to my family doc. I dont even know anymore. Sometimes I tell myself that maybe I just need to deal with the pain, learn to except it as part of my life, but I am not sure how to do that. It is really bad sometimes, when the weather changes omg its really bad. I just wanted to share this with you guys in hopes that maybe someone knows what I am going through and can help me understand it. I am hoping doing all the research with my paper that I will find some answers too.
Thanks for listening,
Sherri